There is this magic word, Melancholia, which has an ancient origin
It is a word that comes from Greek: μελαγχολία.
It is composed of: μέλας black and χολή bile.

In a nutshell, it means black bile. Hippocrates, a Greek physician believed that the ‘black mood’ was the cause of the spirit becoming gloomy and sad. A cohesive, lacerating, deep, unheard-of and inexpressible sadness, melancholy was often associated with women, considered a kind of ‘sin of weakness’ that had to be repressed. However, precisely through this contemplative sadness, the feminist avant-gardes of the 19th and 20th centuries embraced melancholy as a means to challenge the power structures of social norms and to express their struggle for equality. ERWARTUNG is grafted in the passage of time onto the figure of a feminine double, evolving on the borders of abstraction and figuration, the real and the imaginary, what appears and what is hidden, a manifestation of a double-image inner complexity and a bodily languor where everything blurs.